Whether I laugh or cry I can’t scream here Near the white light Life continues to ache and pound With drunken sweetness It ain’t pretty Though I try to make it be What can I do except sit here in affliction I’m losing Is it even my fight? Now hidden from the world Stained glass broken Dull, dirty, lifeless The shattered pieces reflecting me Though I can’t really see She speaks and turns away from me I don’t remember her words Only the hurt they caused And the stains they left on my heart I see her now standing there But we no longer exist Except for the scattered and jaded memories That make no sense They mean nothing to her now Why must they mean something to me? I am weaker than the powers that bind me She surpasses it with an ease I didn’t know existed Slipped into a world that I can’t enter She won’t let me I understand my place Though I cannot accept it If I leave it alone, she’ll never come back Should I even let her? Would she even want to? I really don’t have a choice She decided long before I knew I could It’s a waste of time – Having hope in a lost cause Maybe that’s what keeps me going All I know is emptiness (And I don’t want it) And the fact that you must feel it too