“It’ll only end in tears,” he said.
“So make it worth the pain,” I replied.
~ an inevitable goodbye
If you’re homesick
give me your hand
and I’ll lead you back.
The light will
always be left on
Would you jump in and drown with me? Brave the waves as they pull you under, battle the current and know there's no tomorrow Fight until your lungs push out your last breath and pull me tighter as we lose the surface Would you dive in or sail away? I can face it alone Don't make me
The city sleeps tonight while I stave off desolation It's palpable, unwavering, desperate for attention I whisper to keep it at bay I am surrounded, the air heavy around me in place of your arms, my solace We were encased in our temporary escape, blanketed by stars Until daylight broke and all else faded I'll give in eventually, but not tonight Tonight I'm staring at the empty street
The right words do not exist to explain this hole in my chest. The waves crash and pull and I can barely stay afloat, drowning slowly in its monstrosity. How can I describe this heartache? Except to say I feel it in my fingertips, I feel it in my bones. Missing you is all consuming without reprieve. An endless hallway and locked doors. There is no sun, the stars all hide. I'm in a vast emptiness.
Homesick for a place
that may not exist,
but it doesn’t stop me
from this endless pursuit.
The words may not have been spoken But I still have my fire thriving within me It burns for you it mourns for me The parts I've lost, the ones I can't share parts only you know Because out loud it can never live not the way you embrace it, the way you accept me I lay my fire at your feet because only you would not succumb only you would emerge with me
There is no solace in goodbye just a fading light - your light counting down to darkness I wish it nowhere but here wrapped in my chaos Nothing else makes sense, soothes my soul, quite the same It's different now, everything is different and I don't know how to make it right I can't see it anymore I don't know how to feel your light
We stand at the edge of it waiting for the drop, screaming into the void. The compelling urge to run away is the only reason I stay What led us here: the wild in me, my uncompromising will and blind convictions Our dalliance only a half shadow, slowly fading into the wind Even for this I will not yield In the mist of the morning I watch it fly away, overwhelmed and inspired
I remember this feeling It twists and weaves, braided into my soul Like the secrets we share, between us it remains I don't love you... So give it all back: the whispers and stolen moments my heart Give it back and I'll pretend I'm whole My truth is buried deep, raging it's war, catching in my throat so I can't scream But nights like those... we owned the world The memory remains, a slow burning fire, evergreen and bright. The wild still lingers Encase it and runaway with me But no, I don't love you