I look at your life and I see who you are The triumphs you claim are nothing more than meaningless trophies That you too proudly display They're starting to dull Maybe you'll see it too But you're naive in this way, so I know you won't My head remains high I won't be infected by you Or your words What used to sting can touch me no longer I looked past those shallow eyes And tried to understand your clouded soul Not everyone can be saved You're simply okay with the status quo I can accept that now Dig a little deeper and break free But understand something: I don't hate you... I pity you
I thought those were my eyes But at second glance I can’t seem to recognize They stare at me intently And as hard as I try I simply can’t turn away Tricky, tricky mirror What have you done to me? The candle’s flickering light Makes the shadows dance This girl is staring at me She’s fighting so hard to get out This morning was the same as last The routine has not been broken But something’s just not clicking And I feel like I’m disappearing Breaking free and running wild She will not hide I may not want her to This raw awakening is uncontrollable I’m lost in its lust I love this temptation I won’t let it go I think it’s time to embrace it
These thoughts are never ending Intrusive and rude They speak to me in volumes And I, unable to control them, am left to endure It's like a slow ticking . . . no mater how far I run Still, it follow This taunting becomes a game And I'm losing Losing control Losing what little insight I gained And without notice I fall Trapped in these thoughts Thoughts that start making sense I have long prayed for strength Expectant of what was to come And even with time I wasn't ready It's hard to fight your demons When you can't find a way to let them go Around me they swim Til I can't take anymore I'll play your little game for now
I walk alone Through hallways that were once filled with light But now are still and silent Breaths are quick and many Tears break free to run their course The only symbol of my life But they too are slowly draining slowly fading They will leave me too Faithfulness regarded. Loyalty forgotten. Long endless hallway you engulfed me You’ve stolen me Freedom torn from me hid me away Feelings, emotions trapped within you You control me Everything about me, strangled and smothered Took away all that was anything to me And for what, I pray? I am still alone Leave me too What is left to endure but the stinging strikes of hate and misguided love? I knew no better than to fall for you I know no better still The quietness bring about ironic serenity In contradiction to all intended Out of place and much too late Attempts failing Now guided by chance and luck But not much hope Beliefs of a lost cause - - The distraction All is gone again holes dug deeper to the very core of my soul Each tear transforming me until I am no more Long hallway you have failed me Lost me in your battle Your promises of light left undelivered I am no more All is forgotten by dawning of light Too late to help survive or revive I am gone, lost Long lost light reborn, with blinding brightness Reclaim your lost child Finally released and in search of you Leave me not to dwell in tiny corners Blending in with the darkness Find me let me live again
While peeking out from the crack in the closet door My trembling fingers cover my mouth My eyes wide with fear Not a sound - not a sound Oh no, he's coming! Hide! Hide behind the closet door In my little corner, with my knees up to my chest My little body curled into a ball Then, looking at the place I've come to know as home The four small walls that imprison me Blocking me from all to see The cold, bare floor The darkness that surrounds me The crack in the closet door The chain's too high so it's hard for me to unlock the door and be free The crack in the closet door, teasing me The gorilla mask upon the shelf, my watcher There to make sure I stay in place Also it too high to reach So there he stays glaring down at me His eyes black, empty, scaring me Yes, he's gone Open now, open to reveal the light The only light I ever see The light that comes from the crack in the closet door Nothing left to do but wait Guarded by the light Tender, loving light - my only friend Giving me hope, making me strong "Come in, come in light," I beg Through the crack in the closet door "Soothe me with your caring touch," I say (Although who am I to know what a caring touch is?) So now, alone with the protection of the light I sleep, sleep Drifting into a world outside the closet door A world I will never see... For what could I see through a crack in a closet door?